Patience for Hope

By: Resan Angga Priatna

My name is Angga, I have a friend named Sinta Yuliani, she is nice, my days are beautiful when I am with her. Sinta was born in Bandung, July 18, 2003. She lives with her grandmother, because when she was young her parents separated and Sinta chose to live with her grandmother and grandfather, her mother's parents. He is no less affectionate than his parents, because his grandmother and grandfather who always loved her sincerely.

As the days passed, she grew into a beautiful and intelligent girl. Now he has become a child of SMAN 1 Kenangan, an excellent and competitive school. At school, Sinta became an outstanding student and became the idol of every male student. One time, she met me in the school cafeteria. She hit me and accidentally the water I was carrying spilled on his clothes. I apologized "Oh, sorry the water wet your clothes" Sinta immediately replied "Oh, I should apologize, because I was in too much of a hurry and didn't see you". Because I'm a stupid math student, I took the initiative to ask Sinta to teach me. I asked "Em, my math grades are bad, will you teach me Math?", she replied "Em, actually I'm busy, but later in the afternoon there will be How come it's free time, is it okay in the afternoon?" I answered "Em, that's fine, thank you." "Yes," answered Sinta briefly.

Since that day. Sinta and I became closer and began to get to know each other. She and I often studied together and my grades increased. Apart from studying, I also often invite her to have snacks, play, and go for walks. Time flies, I can't believe that Sinta and I have known each other for almost a year, and we are very close. Day after day, time after time, I feel something out of the ordinary. I feel this friendship has turned into love. Maybe it's because I feel comfortable around her, so that feeling arises. However, after that feeling emerged, my heart felt uncomfortable because I harbored that love.

Because of my different attitude, Sinta began to feel that there was something strange about my attitude. Sinta and I's friendship began to stretch because of my condition, which was still afraid to be honest for fear that he would turn away from me. It's been a month I haven't seen Sinta, there is a deep feeling of longing but I can't afford to meet her. I feel ashamed to meet her because things are not as usual. At school, during recess. I was determined to meet her and express the feelings that were in my heart. We met at the back of the deserted 12th grade, because I was embarrassed if anyone overheard my conversation.

In my heart I still hesitate to express this love, but I have to bear the risk no matter what. I started the conversation "Eh Sinta, it's been a long time since we've seen each other". "Um yes," said Sinta very briefly. Sinta immediately asked back "What are you talking about? How come it's in a quiet place like this?" he asked. "Um, I want to be honest with you..." I said. Sinta replied, "What do you want to talk about honestly?", "Um, I... I... I..." My words haven't come out yet, a friend of mine greeted us "Eh, what are you two doing together in a quiet place like this?", Sinta suddenly replied "no more what's wrong, we're just chatting", "yes" I answered. "Hm, hurry to class, the bell will ring soon," said my friend. Before the bell rang, Sinta and I went to our respective classes.

After that day, Sinta and I rarely saw each other again because we were both busy preparing for the final school exam. The final exams for school have ended, and it doesn't feel like we've parted ways at school. At the time of farewell, Sinta and I met again at the back of the 12th grade and there I revealed everything. I love her very much and love her. even though on the day of school farewell, I hope that Sinta accepts my love and can accept me as I am. However, as I feared, Sinta refused and reasoned because she wanted to focus on studying, in fact she continued her studies at the university level.

One year has passed, I was busy studying at the university, and had not seen her again. One time I was drinking coffee at the cafe, I met her with his girlfriend. I pretended not to see her, but he greeted me first. We also talked about how busy each other was in class. I remember the first time we met in the school cafeteria, as if opening memories of the past that were almost forgotten. Can't be denied, my feelings for her are still the same as before. Because it's been a long time since I've lost contact, I asked for her number so I can maintain our friendship. It didn't feel like we were talking. I forgot that I had an appointment with my friends. I said goodbye and immediately left the cafe.

A week later, I intend to invite Sinta for coffee together at the same cafe when we met a week ago. I expressed again all my feelings, that all this time I really hoped for it. After I expressed all my feelings, I didn't expect that I would get the answer I was expecting. She said that he was very sorry for rejecting me, and that he had been waiting for time to repeat itself. She is very happy because his wish has come true, so am I, I am very happy because our friendship can turn into love. Even though it took a long time, but I am very happy because she and I are now us who are united in the word of love.